I had a solid week of “up” after vacation. I was up every day at 5:30, and going and cleaning and all that rearranging around the house and….
Now I am back to where I started. Sleeping till 10 am. Not exactly depressed but not a lot of extra energy.
It’s the nature of my life and I know if I would just accept the waves and lulls instead of fighting it, and do the best with what I have, life would be much more kind.
It’s my nature to fight.
The picture is our new-to-us loveseat. It is a Craigslist find from Saturday. My mom let us borrow her truck and she watched Oliver while Jared and I went out to brave the Craigslist potential crazy. This was the second choice. The first choice was in terrible condition in a home that was in arguably terrible condition. On the fly on the way home, disappointed, I texted this guy and he said to come on over. Its cushions were not in the best ever condition: in fact, we ditched the back pillows that came with it. The bottom cushions need to be replaced but that will have to be with funds from another month.
In the middle of writing this. Oliver came and asked me to play a game with him. And so, I did. And in the middle of playing that game, I remembered to tell all 3 boys to drink water, which they did. And I gave them their anti-allergy meds. And I started laundry. And I helped Porter with some personal hygiene items with his face.
I remembered to be present, and the melancholy faded into the background. I wasn’t fighting against anything, it just faded away gracefully.
Mindful. Always be mindful, Caroline.