It’s that time of year for a year in review post. My word for 2019 was “kind” but in the end, in retrospect the word “grateful” sums up 2019.
Photography: A Year in Review
Resume business and: five weddings, a senior session, a Fresh 48, three family sessions, and a prom session.
I didn’t even start until March and didn’t start advertising really until April.
I’ve loved every minute of it.
My business site, http://caroline.photography, got neglected for much of the year, but I have started adding a little bit to the blog and I will be adding some of the weddings from the year in the next few weeks.
Family This Year
Porter is taller than me and Liam is reading voraciously.
Oliver is learning to read.
We are a soccer and band family. The boys take interest in extracurriculars like Esports and Lego Robotics. Liam wants to do ROV next semester.
Jared and I are in a good place right now.
Mental Health: A Year in Review
Eh, what can I say? My mental health is what it is. I feel like my meds work well enough without nasty side effects and I take my meds religiously.
Depression has been a continual issue, but it’s not all-consuming every single day. This year, it hasn’t made me forget that I love photography. No major spikes in severity. That fact is a huge win for me.
My anxiety has been an issue this year but there have been several extenuating circumstances but I just have to remember not to involve myself overly in other people’s drama. I do my best to keep drama at bay these days and remember that other people’s problems are not my problems and my actual problems are few and far between.
In fact with my year in review, I have come to realize how much my mental well-being is attached to my ability to connect with my art. The 365 Project was more discipline than I was able to achieve with regard to a personal project. I was hard on myself at first when it ended, but I really think it bridged the gap between the business drought. The mechanics of making myself take a picture and process it every day was an exercise that connected my brain and the art of creating to a kind of contentment that I cannot achieve any other way.
In retrospect, I can work on mindfulness and being in the present moment to continue progressing in a positive way. I wrote about mindfulness in January but I put the present moment aside for much of the year and really, it’s a root cause for my discontent. My mind naturally wanders to the past, to the negative, to the drama. When I focus on the present, it is easier to be grateful and my gratefulness puts me in a good mood. It’s one cycle that is good to perpetuate.
I am so, so grateful for my church. This year has reminded me of why Carrollton Presbyterian Church was my anchor even when I was 900+ miles away in Iowa. There is a strength of faith in my church community that is hard to put into words.
My closest girlfriends are the best and I am grateful that I get to see them at least weekly at church, and sometimes twice weekly. These women have proven that they love me, quirks and all. And I love them so very much in return.
The school community is awesome, as well. All three of my boys are thriving at school.
We need, as a family, to get involved more in the larger Carrollton community. In general though, our time is pretty thin so maybe we are doing what we can right now, between school and church.
My thyroid and thyroid hormone resistance seems to have chilled. It’s been a solid five months of no thyroid drama. I secretly suspect that I may be hyperthyroid right now and that may be a source of my anxiety of late, but I have no proof of that until the end of January. And there’s been other people’s drama lately, so maybe I’m just naturally anxious….goodness knows that would be unsurprising.
I need to exercise more and in November, I was on that path. Time has been scarce and depression took over for the beginning of December, so the elliptical was the sacrifice. However, I am committed to getting back to it in 2020. I haven’t forgotten the endorphin high.
It’s been a good year. I am blessed.
Jared: remind me to look at this post when I am paralyzed next year.